Tomorrow I will get a feeding tube surgically installed. My, how life changes. It was just four years ago that one of my main focuses was staying near the top of the National rankings of my sport, something that brought much social connection and friendship. In some ways it feels like a different life and in some ways it feels like little has changed.

Focuses change, challenges change. I am writing this with an eye gaze machine, something that I’m new at and am extremely slow at. It is a new project however.

My writing has diminished greatly for some time now. Perhaps because I felt like I hadn’t much more to say, perhaps because I was letting pride hinder me, perhaps I realized that letting others in on my life won’t save me in any way. Of course real life is usually a mix of many thoughts and motivations.

The good news is that I will finally be able to shotgun a beer.